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ed a place of considerable magnitude; much larger than lowton。 we were now; as far as i could see; on a sort of mon; but there were houses scattered all over the district; i felt we were in a different region to lowood; more populous; less picturesque; more stirring; less romantic。
the roads were heavy; the night misty; my conductor let his horse walk all the way; and the hour and a half extended; i verify believe; to two hours; at last he turned in his seat and said—
“you’re noan so far fro’ thornfield now。”
again i looked out: we were passing a church; i saw its low broad tower against the sky; and its bell was tolling a quarter; i saw a narrow galaxy of lights too; on a hillside; marking a village or hamlet。 about ten minutes after; the driver got down and opened a pair of gates: we passed through; and they clashed to behind us。 we now slowly ascended a drive; and came upon the long front of a house: candlelight gleamed from one curtained bow…window; all the rest were dark。 the car stopped at the front door; it was opened by a maid…servant; i alighted and went in。
“will you walk this way; ma’am?” said the girl; and i followed her across a square hall with high doors all round: she ushered me into a room whose double illumination of fire and candle at first dazzled me; contrasting as it did with the darkness to which my eyes had been for two hours inured; when i could see; however; a cosy and agreeable picture presented itself to my view。
a snug small room; a round table by a cheerful fire; an arm…chair high…backed and old…fashioned; wherein sat the neatest imaginable little elderly lady; in widow’s cap; black silk gown; and snowy muslin apron; exactly like what i had fancied mrs。 fairfax; only less stately and milder looking。 she was occupied in knitting; a large cat sat demurely at her feet; nothing in short was wanting to plete the beau…ideal of domestic fort。 a more reassuring introduction for a new governess could scarcely be conceived; there was no grandeur to overwhelm; no stateliness to embarrass; and then; as i entered; the old lady got up and promptly and kindly came forward to meet me。
“how do you do; my dear? i am afraid you have had a tedious ride; john drives so slowly; you must be cold; e to the fire。”
“mrs。 fairfax; i suppose?” said i。
“yes; you are right: do sit down。”
she conducted me to her own chair; and then began to remove my shawl and untie my bonnet…strings; i begged she would not give herself so much trouble。
“oh; it is no trouble; i dare say your own hands are almost numbed with cold。 leah; make a little hot negus and cut a sandwich or two: here are the keys of the storeroom。”
and she produced from her pocket a most housewifely bunch of keys; and delivered them to the servant。
“now; then; draw nearer to the fire;” she continued。 “you’ve brought your luggage with you; haven’t you; my dear?”
“yes; ma’am。”
“i’ll see it carried into your room;” she said; and bustled out。
“she treats me like a visitor;” thought i。 “i little expected such a reception; i anticipated only coldness and stiffness: this is not like what i have heard of the treatment of governesses; but i must not exult too soon。”
she returned; with her own hands cleared her knitting apparatus and a book or two from the table; to make room for the tray which leah now brought; and then herself handed me the refreshments。 i felt rather confused at being the object of more attention than i had ever before received; and; that too; shown by my employer and superior; but as she did not herself seem to consider she was doing anything out of her place; i thought it better to take her civilities quietly。
“shall i have the pleasure of seeing miss fairfax to…night?” i asked; when i had partaken of what she offered me。
“what did you say; my dear? i am a little deaf;” returned the good lady; approaching her ear to my mouth。
i repeated the question more distinctly。
“miss fairfax? oh; you mean miss varens! varens is the name of your future pupil。”
“indeed! then she is not your daughter?”
“no;—i have no family。”
i should have followed up my first inquiry; by asking in what way miss varens was connected with her; but i recollected it was not polite to ask too many questions: besides; i was sure to hear in time。
“i am so glad;” she continued; as she sat down opposite to me; and took the cat on her knee; “i am so glad you are e; it will be quite pleasant living here now with a panion。 to be sure it is pleasant at any time; for thornfield is a fine old hall; rather neglected of late years perhaps; but still it is a respectable place; yet you know in winter…time one feels dreary quite alone in the best quarters。 i say alone—leah is a nice girl to be sure; and john and his wife are very decent people; but then you see they are only servants; and one can’t converse with them on terms of equality: one must keep them at due distance; for fear of losing one’s authority。 i’m sure last winter (it was a very severe one; if you recollect; and when it did not snow; it rained and blew); not a creature but the butcher and postman came to the house; from november till february; and i really got quite melancholy with sitting night after night alone; i had leah in to read to me sometimes; but i don’t think the poor girl liked the task much: she felt it confining。 in spring and summer one got on better: sunshine and long days make such a difference; and then; just at the mencement of this autumn; little adela varens came and her nurse: a child makes a house alive all at once; and now you are here i shall be quite gay。”
my heart really warmed to the worthy lady as i heard her talk; and i drew my chair a little nearer to her; and expressed my sincere wish that she might find my pany as agreeable as she anticipated。
“but i’ll not keep you sitting up late to…night;” said she; “it is on the stroke of twelve now; and you have been travelling all day: you must feel tired。 if you have got your feet well warmed; i’ll show you your bedroom。 i’ve had the room next to mine prepared for you; it is only a small apartment; but i thought you would like it better than one of the large front chambers: to be sure they have finer furniture; but they are so dreary and solitary; i never sleep in them myself。”
i thanked her for her considerate choice; and as i really felt fatigued with my long journey; expressed my readiness to retire。 she took her candle; and i followed her from the room。 first she went to see if the hall…door was fastened; having taken the key from the lock; she led the way upstairs。 the steps and banisters were of oak; the staircase window was high and latticed; both it and the long gallery into which the bedroom doors opened looked as if they belonged to a church rather than a house。 a very chill and vault… like air pervaded the stairs and gallery; suggesting cheerless ideas of space and solitude; and i was glad; when finally ushered into my chamber; to find it of small dimensions; and furnished in ordinary; modern style。
when mrs。 fairfax had bidden me a kind good…night; and i had fastened my door; gazed leisurely round; and in some measure effaced the eerie impression made by that wide hall; that dark and spacious staircase; and that long; cold gallery; by the livelier aspect of my little room; i remembered that; after a day of bodily fatigue and mental anxiety; i was now at last in safe haven。 the impulse of gratitude swelled my heart; and i knelt down at the bedside; and offered up thanks where thanks were due; not forgetting; ere i rose; to implore aid on my further path; and the power of meriting the kindness which seemed so frankly offered me before it was earned。 my couch had no thorns in it that night; my solitary room no fears。 at once weary and content; i slept soon and soundly: when i awoke it was broad day。
the chamber looked such a bright little place to me as the sun shone in between the gay blue chintz window curtains; showing papered walls and a carpeted floor; so unlike the bare planks and stained plaster of lowood; that my spirits rose at the view。 externals have a great effect on the young: i thought that a fairer era of life